my heart went knock knock

I kinda miss blogging. I miss coming back here to read what has happened over the past few months. Thinking back, i don't remember much about 2011, cept for SYF. Time is passing too quickly to recall what has happen. Tmrw marks the start of the last week. The last week to the last 6 weeks before prelims, and yet i feel like i'm barely ready for it.  And before you know it, it's gonna be the As. Just waiting for my sweet freedom. But for now, it's all about the books. 

The boyfriend and I have been talking about visiting USS after his As alot and finally, just before school reopens for me, we decided to head down! After making me wait ( as usual ) and our petty cold war ( as usual as well ), we settled down at Thai Nudle House for dinner. I had such a bad experience the previous time before the tom yum soup was burning my mouth. So i was smart this time, had pineapple rice. Kinda finished the whole plate on my own despite the lady telling us the portion was for 2. Tsk. We had honey ribs which was so goood, so glad we ordered that and one bowl of tom yum soup! Didn't take out my camera so no photos! 

Walked around, irritated each other a little here and there before getting on the monorail to waterfront station! We walked around took photos, Daniel got rejected by the hersey's mascot HAHAHA. But the mascot took a photo with us anyway. I'm sorry but i hate Resse's and the smell killed me the moment i walked in. I can't believe they're selling Resse's candle?! Peanut butter overload man.

Today, i became a hungry ghost (Sus always calls me that when I eat non-stop, when i'm never full). Helped her with her final year project at Ann Siang Hill. I love that place, so quiet and away from the crowd. She brought me to Books Actually where we decided that we just had to build a library in our future homes. A big spacious room with shelves of books with a couch and a small table will be ideal (: Love that place, would definitely head down again one day! We walked around, along the way Sus would stop at random spots to take photos. We ended up at our last stop which was right infront of PS.Cafe, so we spontaneously walked in for our lunch! Had Portobello Mushroom Soup, Fried Onions and our dessert - Lemon Pudding with Lemon Custard topped with Vanilla ice cream. 

 

 

The first mouth of the lemon pudding was really sour but sweet at the same time because of the ice cream. I loved every mouth of the pudding, it was so good! I can't wait to go back for more desserts (: It's one of those places where i don't mind spending money, their desserts are worth it (: Surprised Dot at work today. It was really funny cause we tapped her and she thought we were customers! She apologized and we burst out in laughters. We had to tapped her again, make her look up and take a good look at us before we realized IT WAS US. HAHAHA. We sat there for awhile, i had brocolli cheese soup while looking at dot tear bacons. 

Town to meet the LINGS - Liling and Kailing for a HTHT session! Had dinner at Ippudo Ramen before watching The Ghost Must Be Crazy. That show was kinda funny, but i was so tired i was falling asleep during the first part of the movie. Hokkien makes me sleep i think. tsk. But yes, instead of getting shocked by the ghosts, i jumped cause the lings screamed during the first 10mins of the movie. HAHA. We walked to Far East to window shopped. Kailing and I were bullying Liling, we kept pushing her to every white dress we saw regardless if it was nice or not. Heehee. It's really nice to hang out with different groups of people in a day, especially with those i missed out on for a long time! (: 

  

Sometimes, i wonder what i want out of this. 

I've been a bitch these days, i guess i can put it in that way. I let my thoughts get to me. I haven't learnt anything from the past relationship, i'm just repeating the mistakes over and over again. Why can't i be a little more flexible? Why do I choose to think in a particular way? Trust has always been a huge issue for me. Once it's broken, it's gone. I'll start harping on that issue, never letting it go. I've tried to change my mindset, try to hold on to the trust i once had. And i think i might have achieve that, but for a limited time before i start harping on the issue again. I don't understand how i've become such a person, someone who doubts, someone who claims she trusts but at the same time starting to realize that maybe her actions totally reflect the opposite. 

And then i figured out what i want out of this, i want to learn how to trust whole heartedly, i want honesty. 
But it's not gonna be easy. Arguments are inevitable. I just want to talk it out, let my thoughts be heard and my questions answered. 

 

Take a slow walk, have a picnic, roaming all over to find good food, cycling, watch the sunset.. So much i wanna do, but school starts in a week. what a bummer. Oh wells, at least i'm starting to clear my homework. Starting to. I managed to clean my table, it's really white and shiny now (: Life has been treating me well.

Taiwan trip was great with the dancers (: All we did was eat, and eat and eat. Dance was pretty fun there, it was a good experience! And the best part was we hardly perspire while dancing because the weather was awesome! The temperature dropped drastically, i wasn't really prepared for the cold i was so glad i took my mum's advice to bring the coat. I didn't get to shop much :/ Practically spent all my money on food. Which brings me to my last point: I am terrified of Taiwanese sausages. TERRIFIED. the smell of it makes me wanna puke.

So much for Christmas Eve. 
Off to town to settle some stuff. Will be back in a few hours to make this blog alive again. 

That's how i am. 
Take it or leave it. 

I am such a boring person. 

I've been eating way too much. Blame it on Food Network or AFC they make me hungry ): They encourage me to look out for good restaurants. I want to eat a really good steak now. & I wish i had an oven so i can bake as and when i want to. I do not like the "oven" we have i rather call it a toaster. 

School started today. Reducing the amount of hours i sleep by 5 hours = walking zombie. Am still asking myself why on earth i took chemistry AGAIN. but, I'm gonna be a good girl, gonna study during the 3 hour break tomorrow! :D i'm going to master chem sooner or later! 

As i've said, i'm a boring person. I've nothing else to say here so off to bed again! Goodnight everyone (: